Written by my mom, Anne, Before She Could Be Claimed Posthumously

In Memory of Shadow

I remember opening my eyes on those first mornings

Back in South Africa, when I was still able to visit,

And in the space between sleep and awareness,

Not yet knowing where I was,

I would hear footsteps walking up the long passage past the bedrooms,

Accompanied by the sounds of a large dog

Brimming with energy and the expectation of a new day.

And I would know that I was “home”.

It was the lovely Shadow living up to his name,

sticking close to my brother, as he headed towards the kitchen.

No matter how tired I still felt from the long flights,

I would rise eagerly because I did not want to miss the ritual of the morning walk.

I remember how Shadow would become more and more excited

As the humans he loved put on shoes and found his leash,

It was like he couldn’t understand the delays…”Come on!”

His beautiful eyes would beseech.

And then the gates would open and we would be off

Into the noise and commotion

that accompanies walking a dog in the streets of Johannesburg.

Neighbouring dogs would bark frantically, some at the fence

And some even from rooftops,

But Shadow knew he was king of the street and this was his domain.

Depending on the time available we would walk to one of a variety of parks,

And Shadow would shake with excitement as the leash was removed

and he could run free, his sheer joy, contagious and life affirming.

I would then have time to notice the red earth of Africa, and settle into knowing

That I was indeed back in the country of my birth.

Sometimes my brother and I would talk,

 but mostly I remember walking in companionable silence,

As Shadow ran, chased sticks and “smiled” with joy.

The walks home were just as filled with the noise of the envy of dogs behind fences.

But my brother knew where all the “combatants” lurked

And would cross the road or just walk on by, depending on the level of threat.

Back in the kitchen, there were newspapers to be read, and breakfast eaten.

Often Shadow would be there also, making me laugh,

As he ate one piece of dog kibble at a time.